Okay, i'll admit its my fault for what happened. Yes i shouldn't have done or say things about you, from a guy's way of seeing things its just one way of making us feel better..No intention what so ever from making you feel sad and hate me.. I never thought my actions will cause you that much of a trouble and bring you so much sadness into your life. You left me cold out there, what else could i do? I promise, I'll do what ever i can to make it up to you..I've lost so many this 8 months and i don wish to achieve what we were, but you and just you being my good friend. A friend that understands me more than anyone else. For everything that you've done to me so far, I understand I'm a bitch. not you not any of your friends. Its amazing how things changed so much huh? It was like just a second ago when we were talking our lungs out through the phone and look where are we now? There's just so much i wanna tell you but just so much that i dare to tell you, everything about you in me was deep so deep i was so lost from the very beginning, I'm struggling i will not lie. But seeing you struggle makes me feel even worse, if i could eat up all the things i've done to you trust me i would do it. But hey this is not the movies right? I'll make it up to you somehow i won't stop trying :) Be happy with your next guy all i can say is this :)
For you the Best Friend that helped me so much, no words could describe how much I owe you for constantly being there for me when i was so down or when i needed you. You were there for me every time until I myself caused you to hate me like how the others did. Really theres no way for me to ever thank you, even the Thank you word isn't enough. I'm not sure if our friendship is like how it used to be last time but still, you're still considered as my best friend :) infact you're the top 5 in my list :) Thank you, jun qing :)